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I'm 20 years old, 5'3, 124lb and a 30F bra size. I feel like it's been hard for me to get used to having bigger breasts because I used to be around a 32B/30C until I was 16. I also ran cross-country in high school, and it's a lot easier to run with small breasts. Not only that, but I ... have a small frame, and I think that smaller breasts are more proportional and make sense for me.
It's really only been in the last 2 years that my breasts have gotten so big that I find it harder to exercise and to fit into clothing. It's hard for me to find clothing that is cute, functional and stylish. I don't like that I often have to buy a size up in my tops so that they will fit over my breasts. I might not be as thin as I was in high school, but I still have a small waist, and the larger sizes don't show that off at all. I also hate that there are lots of cute tops that my less busty friends can wear, but if I wear that shirt, it looks too sexual or inappropriate. When I go shopping, I mostly tend to think about how tops and dresses will look on my boobs. With the loose and flowy trend, most of them make me look fat, and I leave feeling sad about my body.
It's also been hard for me to find bras that fit. I'm pretty much on the borderline of being sized out of all of the American brands. I generally like the UK brands like Panache and Freya better, but I feel jealous of other girls who can just walk into a store and buy bras off the rack without having to order online.
I've come to realize that I need to be okay with spending more money on a good bra because if I just stick with the ones that I can find in store, I'm pretty much forced to buy a larger band size in order for my breasts to fit. Generally, I don't suffer from back pain too much (I occasionally have bad days though), but before I learned my proper size and when I was wearing bras that were too big in the band and too small in the cup, my back and shoulders would hurt me all of the time. Honestly, I think that wearing the correct size has helped reduce back pain for me more than any other strategy that I tried, but I still don't like the fact that it's not very socially acceptable to be a 30F. I don't appreciate that half of the people I know don't even believe this size exists, and the other half of the people I know think that a 30F is only possible if you're a stripper or they're fake.
Sometimes though, I don't feel justified in wishing I could have smaller breasts because there are plenty of women out there who are a 28/30 band size and have larger breasts than I do, and are perfectly happy that way. I wish I could accept my body the way it is, but I'm uncertain if I'll ever get there. I also don't quite feel justified in wanting a reduction, because like I said, wearing a smaller band size and therefore distributing the weight of my breasts across my torso instead of putting all of the pressure on the straps helped a lot with my back pain. Part of me thinks that physical pain is the only valid reason to have a breast reduction, and that surgery should only be a last resort for people who have tried everything, but are still in pain every day. Basically I question if I want a reduction for the wrong sorts of reasons. I wonder if it's enough that I feel self-conscious about quadboobing out of my bra, or that my breasts bounce too much when I try to exercise, or that I don't feel good about going shopping because most clothing isn't made for girls with a large bust. I find the idea of surgery scary, but I also find it daunting that if I don't do anything, I'll probably never be able to walk into a chain lingerie store and try on my size. I don't necessarily worry that I'd regret it, or that I would be unhappy with the scars, but I do wonder if I'll look back and wonder if I could have learned to love my body the way that it is now.
Does anyone have any advice for me? Do you think that my own emotional and self-esteem issues around my big breasts are something that I can work on? How can I stop living in the past and remembering how much easier it was to be a C cup?
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Shared on Jul 21, 2016 Flag this
Thanks for your photos!! This effortlessly explains the shape difference.
Interesting! I think you are rocking it in both but I can totally understand the less wide preference. I say do what makes you feel the best :)
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